I simply haven't been inspired to write much lately.  School is overwhelming.  Summer classes are always a terrible idea ~~ What was I thinking?

I won't be returning to the Humanities Grad program in the fall.  I've had some time to really look things over and spending the next two years doing what I need to do to become a certified teacher will be better in the long run.  I'll have a means to make a decent income and finally have some benefits, including a solid retirement.  Humanities would have left me so deep in debt it made me sick, and I wouldn't have been able to provide for myself.

I started this blog, first, because I missed the creative outlet (I had a journal at Diary-X, but it disappeared)  and second, because I was still listening to my advisors at Lourdes, who advised me the best they could, but my original plan to get the Humanities degree and then enroll in a Special Ed Masters Program was thwarted by "No Child Left Behind".  We all decided that a 9to5er and freelance writing were the way to go since education seemed to be slipping out of my grasp (there aren't many jobs in the area and lay-offs are prevalent).

So, I found my 9-5er and went about setting up a web presence to lead people to my freelance writing work (which never happened - I tried, but I need to learn how to make an article snap - something's missing). Hence the blog.  I also found a fantastic Humanities Graduate program at Tiffin University ~ ~ I knew staying in school was the only way to stay sane while working a repetitive job.  Everything seemed to be in place.  On the surface I was employed and going to grad school, but inside I felt like life was slipping through my fingers ~~ something wasn't right, but I moved forward with my plans, hoping it would eventually feel more comfortable. 

The job only lasted a month, and began to crumble after my return from my 20th High School Reunion. I was not where I was supposed to be, I was not doing what I was put on this earth to do, but it helped me pay the bills, so I'm not complaining. 

I realized it was education or win the lottery, so I went back to my Instructional Assistant job with the intention of finishing the Humanities Graduate degree first, which perplexed the administration at the behavior school.  As the year went on, I realized they wanted me to teach there and I also found a couple of other programs to help me get certified, one of which would give me the opportunity to have some of my loans forgiven.  But more importantly, I discovered that my working environment and the program at Tiffin didn't fit either.  Like oil and water ~~ my brain can not work like that.  But, summer classes start early at Tiffin and I had to make a decision.  I wasn't as clear about things as I am now.  It was a very stressful time.  I chose summer classes because I had let winter classes go.

So, my head's been spinning for the past year and I've been doing my best to stay on course.  The hardest part lately is figuring out what that course should be.  I will never stop writing, I will never stop taking pictures and therefore, unless I say otherwise, I will be observing life in this Universe via The Chronicle of Being for some time to come.